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I've told her that im quitting!
Wa wanted to talk bout more but my brain is having a nuclear meltdown.
10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 BABOOM!
Didnt sleep on Sunday night thinking about this vacation job that i will forget about in 10 years' time. What i do want to remember in 10 years' time is what a great time i'd had in uni. My (i wish, i want, i get) best schooling years. Enough of blurry primary school days (though to date pri6 was excellent), and a cocooned sec sch life, a torturous JC spell... The final chance to go get what I want! YEA!!!
Reading 'The Alchemist' now and it is really a life-changing book. Every page is chock full of wisdom and i need to slow down and think for a while before continuing. Waaaaa..
In summary, Im looking forward to m next nice job! Not before i rest abit first hehe.
I dislike this worrying part of me. A chronic incurable part of me that gives me headaches and stomach tightnesses. Ah blame it on my Virgo Ascendant (what im supposed to be on the inside. The sunsign is how u appear to be to others who do not know u well).
And just when i was feeling down and self-piting these few days, i met this 'visually disabled man' on the bus. He sat beside me and i recognised that he was the same one this morning at the bus stop. I wanted to help him but didnt dare. After trailing him for a minute, i finally asked him where he wanted to go. (i learned that u guide by letting him put a hand on your shoulder). Hmmm his eyes were clear and blinking but he couldnt see? I always chat too much about myself when im meeting someone new. To make up for my 'listening ear' role that i often play with my friends?
After i left him at his block, tears came to my eyes. Here is a man who lost a part of him and yet he is even more cheerful and good natured than the average person. I was so touched. And here i am, wallowing in my seemingly huge problems of employment and i cant sleep nor enjoy myself properly anymore?
I love every one of my five senses. To admire wonderful scenary, sunset, sunrise, and colouflu flowers and my cute dog and loved ones and nice clothes and great books and every form of visual media? To hear your loved ones talk to you and to wondefully grand orchestra music ala Mononoke Hime? To touch smooth cool silks, warm fur, ec? And to taste all the delicious food of the world? And to smell the roses and food?
I am humbled. I feel so selfish. And yet i cant change this worrying part of me that gnaws at my sanity and makes me suspect im neurotic. A future candidate for IMH.
I need a break.
feeling: spent Xo
