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Prelim Blues
Haiz.. Why is there this tight knotted feeling in my stomach? The aftermath after we have received all our papers back. And its still tense now. And its only Monday.. Haiz
Anyway the past few days of pure relaxation were really busy but i like it! Haha. So fun, can go to the zoo, fruitful shopping trips (in total, i bought 3 skirts and 3 blouses. I really like that $18 OP skorts! And now to get a new pair of shoes. ^^), GESSS (Great Eastern Singapore Shopping Spree), badminton, Naruto marathon, hanging out etc. I really like to go out! To have fun with friends! ^o^ haha.
I've never thought of myself as a sociable person. But now i do. I feel lonely if there isnt anybody at home. I crave human interactions. (though i dun look it)
But today, the familiar feeling of having a clam as a mouth was horrible. Reminded me of the waking nightmare of last year. :( And hence the strange anxiety.
Its not only cuz of my P's results. The moods of the people around really affect me. Hmmm..
And i know i could have done better. With all the effort i have put in for P's.
Well, now for the A's. Hmmm. Gonna start revision today. -_-
O and i watched King Kong on Saturday. I think Adrien Brody (spell?) is really dashing. ^^ His half-closed, dreamy, love-lorn eyes.. Awwww. And his distinctive beak like nose. And his eyebrows. He should consider a change in genre. To star in romantic movies. ^^ haha.
Hope that it will be a better day tml. :) Cya then!
End Of Prelims (or almost)
I slept till 2+ pm today! Super shuang, though a bit giddy. And im here to blog once again, courtesy of my bro. (feel so bad for hijacking his laptop everytime he's out, but i did ask him) ok so a summary of prelims will be: i won't do well, but wont do too badly either (i hope).
Went to watch "The devil wears Prada" yesterday with WL and AB. Though its a looong time since i watched a comedy, i think its not bad. Though the ending is soo predictable. But its scary that the working world is like that?? I dun wanna wear high heels! Cant even balance on those darn things. :( I will stick to my fav wedges (not those made of potato. But i do like potato wedges. The seasoned, crispy tough brown skin and a piping hot floury centre, mmmmm ^^)
After that i went WRL to pei L to study. Haha in the end didnt help her much. I went to dig a nice $5 shorts and kept changing the sizes from L to S (Im not a S size!! :( ) and finally to a M. Luckily the cashier is a kindly Indonesian who didnt mind. But the shorts i finally got is of a thin material. Though i like the design. Still looking for a nice, pleated stiff short skirt.
And im still considering whether to do something.. Im tired of always being the initiator! Maybe not then, if it is such a struggle for any development.. :(
The first minute after i woke up, I started worrying. (used to being worried about at least one thing) Cuz my lil sis is borrowing Fruit Basket (eng ed!!) book 2-11 today. And she's got band. What if she lost it? That blur sotong. And i was calculating how much that bag of comics will be worth, and i came to a staggering sum of almost $800! ( 1 bk=$7.90) its just shows that my poor brain is taking a day off too. My mum told me its just $80. haha. The next thing to worry about is,
"Are u sure there's no exam today? What if i read the timetable wrongly? I dun wanna miss a pp and that subject will be marked 0!!"
So i went to the study room and stared at the timetable. The next pp is on Tues right? And its Chem PI? Hah im paranoid. Cant really get myself to relax completely.
And i cant find something to do. Its strange that when u are having exams, every object inthe house seem interesting, and now that u are free, u have nothing to do. I feel lonely too, cuz everybody is doing their own thing. "so dis is how it is when pp always see me cooped up in the study room!"
But Im going orchard tomorrow with mum and lil sis. Yay got something to look forward to! :D
Ok cya pp on tues then! U wont see me half dead/stoned/wooden anymore!! ^o^
Welcome
My mom is back! And everything is back to normal. But she does seem more prone to ailments these days. Like breathlessness, loose stools etc. Maybe its the different air? She did say its fresher there, but there's also the 4hr time difference. O well..
The souveniers (spell?) i have 'cope' are mostly foodstuffs for my breakfast. My other siblings got bars of chocolates. (well, actually its just one, the eldest who coped 3 whole chocolate bars! haha im complaining..)
I think i cant study at home. Woke up at 10 today! (slept at 1 last nite, but tats cuz i was reading a storybook) Think after all the core pp, im slacking again. :( I have decided to drag someone to some library so that i can study the WHOLE day!! grrr.. 1 more wk!
And i have failed myself yet again. Old habits die hard. :(
ok no more blogging! Till nxt wk! cya! (if u see more posts, u noe im not supposed to be here!) ehx.
The End
ok last post of the day (before i go kaypoh at other people's blog ^^)
I have decided to end it. It is really energy and time consuming. I feel so free now. Maybe next time then.. Goodbye.
Post-mortem of Prelims thus far
haha thats not a nice way to put it but it does describe the situation im in.
GP- Im not gonna do well for P1. Maybe 27? My conclusion '...even if young people have everything, if they do not know their true value, they actually have nothing!' gosh the teacher marking that part will just burst into laughter and frame up my work as 'joke of the year'. :( P2 actually seems more promising, cuz i had this sudden influx of vocab words into my brain. If i spelled them correctly that is. :( eg Q1: ..devile the sancity of life.. (no such word as devile, maybe its defile? and it should be sanctity!) The problem is, when this mood stikes me, i cant think of simpler words. Only those i vaguely remember from the fantasy books i've read of yesteryear. ehx.
Bio-it was a blur. my wooden brain.. :(
Math-the first few questions made me think, hey i actually can do math! then comes blank after blank. But i tink i should be able to pass. At least not that dreaded rockbottom F i got for BT1.
Chem-another blur, didnt refresh my memory for it. I actually woke up in the morning, brain couldnt tahan another study session (got this scary numb, throbbing feeling. much better now ^^) so i happily read Reader's Digest and the newspapers. (on Siti Nurhaliza'a wedding, she is so pretty! :O)
More to come.. ehx what am i doing now?? ok, juz 1 more post!
Revival of my MP3 player!!
Haha and its repaired and working! Did it yesterday. Went all the way to AMK, (luckily) got a taxi to send me to some ulu industrial park. The cabby was so friendly, i chatted with him quite nicely (something that i dun usually do), and found out that he was waiting for admin stuff to go Perth. And he used to buy and sell cables. (we were winding around the industrial park and i saw many uncommon stores, those hardware, construction, furniture types u dun see in shopping centres. haha ya im ignorant)
The actual building had many floors and i got into a huge cargo lift (later found out the passenger one at the side) with an indian man and his son. We were going to the same floor and he showed me where he was going. Different place. oh well. but i complained of how hard it was to get here. I could imagine those poor people whose electronic stuff have broke down and they didnt want to repair it cuz they have not heard of the service centre's address before. haha sounds like me. But i regretted that i didnt say bye to that nice indian man, a nice closure to our brief encounter. Not that i will see him again..
And onwards to the store, where i will endure the crash-course on using mp3 player/computer from an exasperated technician. (the tech-idiot strikes again!) but i still dunno the crux of the issue. How come if it is in the HDD, it doest appear elsewhere? And the songs in the F drive and WMP end up in different locations? grrr i can feel that question twisting in my stomach now. But i dun wanna see that pale, bespectacled man spewing froth at me again. ehx.
And so i have all my songs and more in the mp3! and i should be starting work soon. Its already 1.10pm! I have been at the com (courtesy of my brother) since 9+.. ok onwards!! To study! :D (haha why did i put a happy face?)
Prelim Break
Wah so many things happened.. Let's start from yesterday, Teachers' Day.
I went back Riverside with L. Thought it will be boring, like trying to squeeze out something to say (in the words of ms Haslinda). But it was quite enjoyable. :) Only talked for a while with Mr Radha (form teacher). His curry-pok hairstyle was still the same but he said there were less 'filling' haha.. I said, "Remember me??" He said, "yes, that quiet girl!" :( haha anyway he had to meet more past students so i quickly clipped a cute pink bear paperclip (aka Ms Seetoh, $5.40 for 6, from Popular. Really rushed, wanted to but the red pens i bought last year, but after seeing a chio past classmate of mine from Riverside with a boyfriend, i hid the bundle of red pens behind my back and quickly returned them :( haha but she didnt recognise me ^^)
Next, i had a nice chat with Ms Lim (one of the Chinese Dance T.i.C) about the sad state of the CCA these days cuz they had no time to prepare for SYF nxt year.
After that was the highlight of the day. After the bunch of scary 4/9 guys finally left her table, i went to see Ms Tan (physics teacher). Tot there wouldnt be anything to say but tadaa i even told her about that 20min bus ride to SA, and complained of those super thick stacks of physics ws she heaped on us right before the O's. They lie untouched till this day. ^^
Next were several encounters with past familiar pp (i gawked at how they have changed, especially those less-than-tasteful hairstyles of the guys) but there were some notable missing people.
I have realised that sec sch teachers are so much more helpful, patient etc than jc teachers. Yes, they spoonfeed but that's because i need it. :( But coming to jc have taught me to be more independent of my teachers (haha and go kachia my frens. Sry nat!) But i wonder whether i should visit riverside nxt yr. And i feel guilty tat i didnt do anything for my jc teachers. Wanted to msg them, but delayed till it was too late.
