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Second post: eh the pic magically appears but why is it on top? n i cant drag it down! help!!! ooo but nice right? haha ^^ eh can already!!! haha dunno how. hmmmm...Today's astrology reading for Scorpio: Your desires are in the drivers' seat, but the stars know the best way to get there. Relax and let them navigate. Your job is to get this car moving forward and enjoy some of the roadside attractions along the way.
Ah wisdom from the stars. After last night's outburst, i really doubted my sanity. Im not used to inactivity. Being cooped up at home saps my energy level. I fear the night.
This afternoon, i realised that this impasse of jobs is to allow me time to mentally prepare myself for it, and to enjoy some quiet time of solitude. Cuz since the start of the hols, i have been filling my days with outings, so much so that i lost touch with myself and my family.
Though these days i have been in a wandering daze. Memories of school are just distant twinges. When i complained bout having nothing to do, mum suggested housework. Initial reaction was :x after that felt guilty enough not helping out at all so far. Will do it soon. But i dun wanna wash the toilets!! How bout just some sweeping or cooking?
Mixed feelings of getting a job. Happy to earn some $$, excited and fearful of this new phase of life, anxious that i may mess things up or not do it well and getting along with lil charges or collegues or bosses or agents. Phew. A sense of urgancy..
Listened to corrinne's inspiring songs last night as i tried to sleep. Was like soothing balm on my wounds.
Cant seem to sleep. Cant seem to wake up early. An excess of energy at wrong times of the day.
Oooo sorta finished packing my clothes in the wardrobe. Didnt know that i had so many cloth in that place. But 70% of them are outdated ie from my pri sch days. The big plastic bags still line the bedroom. But i discovered some gems hidden. Clothes i rejected before but i find quite appealing now, with the retro, nautical rage these days. Ah the whims of Fashion. I really should find my own style. Stop buying trendy clothes. Buy those that can last. Ah but the cheap ones dun last and i look at the price tag before i look at that piece of cloth.
Decided to go out at tml. Enough of fearing heart attack-inducing adult fares!! (in the words of Vickland. His language is wonderful, both written and oral, aiya should have asked for his autograph that time before he becomes famous in the future! But its sad that one as talented as him has to worry bout racism in NS, specifically the army, which he got into btw. Hmmm how to make friends with him.. I have a soft spot for big hearted, generous people. He's a Leo?? haha. OG 7 right, SY?)
Sorry BH!! Felt poorly last nite. Some depressing talk and didnt feel like going out. :(( That science centre ting, still considering cuz the job clashing issue is really dear to me (though i hav yet to get one ehx).
My new hp's volume is not that soft, so i can still hear the job offers when they call. *self-counseling talk*
Oooo youtube is fast tonight!! Yay Deathnote episode 12 part 2, here i come!!!
Hmmm tried to upload a pic but it doesnt appear! But its so cool! can transfer pics from hp to com to blog! if it works that is.. Part of the sequence is faulty. Hmmm.. Expect more zhi-lianing pics nxt time! ^^ Some have not seen my face for so long! haha. Didnt realise that i have so many pimple scars, n i still dared to make fun of them on my lil sis' nose.
Speaking of which, she is so lucky!! She was one of the selected few who will go for a china immersion programme for 7 days. She's going m'sia yearly for a band exchange. And if her band gets gold n above for SYF this year, next year, she gets to go Japan or Australia!!! *drools* This from an average neighbourhood school. Her sch really develops the students not only in the academic sense, which my sec sch unfortunately did. Ah, it also taught me to be chameleon-like, able to adapt to a chi or eng environment. Not well, but can lah. Some deep rooted regrets here. Shall not revive them. That phase of my life is long gone. Though it still aches. Augh my poor heart! haha. Heart disease seems likely.
I really have to start exercising. Woke up at 9am, loitered around the house, finished hanging my earrings (so happy with the finished product ^^), and went to sleep on the living room sofa. Only woke up at 2pm. Wanted to jog in the evening but it rained. -_-"
K shall really go watch my anime now. Was really qi ge a few nites ago when QQ could watch it 5min after she came online while i was there measuring the growth of the red loading line. The max was 4cm. =_= But now its completely done!!!! haha.
Oooo finally got some $$ in my wallet cuz my lil sis owned me $4.40 for some sushi. She returned me $2, and after spending $1 on a cheese jap pancake, a lonely golden coin now resides in the coin compartment. I shall guard u well, mr coin!!! I will not kutok my mum tml when we go cwpt. Promise!!
Watched Pride and Prejudice this afternoon. Didnt know that i can like a mushy, romantic movie! But its those gu zhuang movies tat i luv so much. That Mr Darcy is so dashing!!! Reserved to strangers, but warm with family, his brooding eyes are omph. haha. He failed to contain his raging emotions within and the profession of love for Elizabeth was tingling. haha. Shall try to get the book sometime.
I figured that since the chances of a teacher taking some leave in the next few days and even lower chances of the sch calling me, so i have nufin to worry bout. Ah, mixed feelings again.
Release me from this self-imposed prison!!
fly away, bu guang wei lei you duo kun nan
My earring standy!!! :D
