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Been in a rush these few days..
Dun feel like blogging cuz
1) i wanna play neopets!!
2) cant access blogskin.com
3) cant decide on a blogskin
4) connection speed is terribly slow
5) wanna do other stuff
6) wanna go out but cant cuz no $$ le
7) have yet to find a job
speaking of which, i had an opportunity of a well paying job, $7/hour as data entry at starhub, plaza singapura. This happened bout 1hr 15 min after i registered at a recruit agency on Tuesday. The friendly consultant recommended me to this post and there was to be an interview!! Btw he has the same birthday as me!! :) My first jobbing interview. I was so anxious.
For that long wait, i went to the nearby Mac to have my 'breakfast+lunch' (at 5+pm). A cold, sodden day as usual. I sat at the table n scribbled down the details i recalled. Dunno why, but my memory was suddenly so good, can remember every word he told me. Then i consulted with bro: when will uni modules start? He told me that it is better to stop working by the start of july. But camps were in mid june.. Then with mum: she told me not to sign any contracts. And with Lyndia, venting my worries. Thx!! (a silent one, cuz her com is spoiled since last year)
I went back to the agency 15min early. And slowly, the other interviewees arrived. 7 in all, same age, all girls. When my name was called, second in the list, i said 'Here.' in what i hoped was a confident tone. And i entered the small room with another girl. She was accompanied by her friend, who was mean-mouthed. To appear friendly, i started talking to her, saying how nervous i was, is this your first job opening etc. Then followed all my dumb mistakes.
I told them all i knew bout the job. Cuz they only got wind of it by phone, so may not know all the details. Me n my big mouth. They ARE my competitiors. And that gal whom i entered the room with, she was able to use the info i revealed to her own good. Well, it was a question on typing speed, which i have so kindly told them that the boss will be asking that question. As for my typing speed, its pitiful.. Then came the last chance to be big-mouthed. And i grabbed at it like a hapless fool. I actually helped the whole group answer one of the boss's questions, something bout usage of the com. And came my moment of glory, "WE are comfortable with the com." And everybody agreed to it. Wise move kiddo. End of interview.
As i left the building, my dumbness stupefied me. Then i felt my handphone vibrate. A missed call from the agency, so soon? But my phone is always so dam soft. Have been so since i sent it for 'repairs'. I didnt follow up on that call.
I proceeded with some retail therapy at those lil shops at tampines mrt. Bought a white+gold soft skin bag ($10), a shiny teal plait belt ($5), and brown+gold flats ($8). I was still grappling with the aftershock of the sudden end of the interview. I was abit 'feng'. I asked a lady with her bf by her side whether she wanted to share the shoe shop discount deal: 2 pairs for $16, as i couldnt find another pair that i liked. She gave me an amused stare but agreed to it anyway. $$ was to be saved. Who could refuse to that? And later i chatted with the bag shop guy. He asked whether im a "ben di ren'. He suspected that i was from china. I asked "wo xiang ma?". Hmmm i look like a china girl? Just listen to my chinese n u will know. ehx.
Later that night i watched Death Note 2 at orchard with Lyndia. This irritating gal beside me kept telling her fren wat was gonna happen. In the beginning of the movie, she actually talked to a fren on her phone cuz they didnt know where they were sitting. Tried to be softer but her irritation got the better of her. As were the rest of the audience. I tsked a few times. Was still feng after that interview. I think the first movie was better as it really involved a battle of wits. Now, it is like 'chase here chase there, not knowing whether u are chasing the right person' kind of movie. My fren, a fan gal of L was captivated whenever her idol was onscreen. haha.
And for the second consecutive night, we rushed for the last train. Terrifying experience cuz i dont want to walk home from yishun, which my fren assured me was easy, just follow the train track. *_*
Couldnt relax the whole night as i was worrying bout the job. What if they called me on my handphone? Will have to stay at home tomorrow.. And the ominous line of "u may miss the last train" which the boss threw on us. Hey i tot my consultant said it was from 11-9pm?? but i didnt voice it out. Tot it will reduce my chances of getting the job if i said no to anything. The other gals felt the same way too. Later learnt from my mum that any questions concerning your welfare etc better say it out. The boss may even think better of u for your initiative. She didnt like the job cuz of the fishy working hours. what, downstairs very quiet lah, a girl is unsafe etc. i was convinced. But worried that i may have to refuse the opening that they may have reserved for me. I resolved to call the agency tomorrow morn.
9am, 10+, 12+. Ah i finally dragged myself out of bed despite my bedroom n handhphone alarms. I steeled myself before i made the call. "He is out for lunch.. Call back at 1+pm" Augh. Second time: his cheerful voice came on. It seems that starhub wanted to hire more experienced admin pp. N tat missed call was bout tat. AUGH. Was worrying for nufin!!
Fed up with my hp, my mum n i then went to CWPT to get a second hand phone for me. A motorola VX something. Not the slim one. The bulky one. It has some 3G function. Sad to say, (as i hav told A), 3G phone+ tech dummy = 2G phone. So no diff. There were lots of FIR songs left over from the previous owner, but i couldnt activate them. The shop person gave me the box for Vi, a diff model, so the instruction booklet is missing some things. Hmm.. Not used to msging on that phone. N it doesnt record too! But it has iTunes. Dunno how to use. Will ask bro whether can install in his com. Augh.
Stayed at home today again. Feel at a loss. Like im slacking. Really no $$ le n my mum told me not to spend too much already, u have so many new clothes in ur wardrobe le. And im going Bugis tomorrow. Hmmm.. Abit guilty. Sad bout my depleting bank account too. No job seem to be forthcoming. Ng Min said she is working at Kumon, but its only $5/hour, 3 hours a day, marking scripts!!
Good luck to u, Bryan or Tieriana, for helping me find a good job!!
Im getting desperate. 3 more days to a new year n i hav yet to get a job. Self-imposed? perhaps..
ooo long entry!! haha. when i said i didnt wanna blog.
Ahhhh wat should i do?? Go out n find a job myself? Im feeling insecure. That flash of bravery in that interview have forsaken me. Dun feel like venturing to a new place n thick skin ask for a job. And the interviews.. Augh. But desperation may drive me. Or a failing heart which is getting heavier with each passing day. The load was dropped the day i went to cityharvest's xmas carnival whn i sat on that scary bruise-machine. I screamed everytime the ride dropped down, and the gal on my left was calm throughout n was amused with my screams, which were high pitched at first then became groans. It was a relief. I need it again now.
Second post: and my father said, in his heavy handed way, y dun u try relief teaching?? Dun juz wait for tat elusive job offer!! N more advice from my bro who juz came back. The males in my family have advice that sound like orders but i think they are sensible ones this time. This weakness of mine is just a passing one, which happens when i stay too long at home- fear, insecurity n the like. That's y i always loiter at shopping centers even when the party's long over. I will go register now. Wish me luck pp! :D
